"Some days this believers life just does not come easy. Where was that joy and laughter and passion I felt just a few days ago? Was it just a passing passion? Was it even real?"

This is how I feel some days. I think most of us have these times. Times where the fire seems to be smoldering. Times where we are just confused by how we feel. Times when we wonder if our faith is even real.

Truth is, I believe, we go on the way we feel way too much. We make our faith about ourselves. About our feelings. God never told us it was going to be hyped feelings or tearful revelations all the time. He told us it would be troublesome, tiresome and that we would get worn out. He said we would weep and hurt. So, how do we endure these times? How do we make it through?

Well, honestly, all I can tell you is what I do. I remind myself that it is about Him, not me. I read where David was being pursued by Saul. I read the Psalms that were written out of pain. I put on some Crowder or Tomlin and just get alone with God.

Most importantly, I don't stop talking to God. I keep that communication open. I remember what I know, NOT what I feel. I know I am his child, that my Father loves me. That my Jesus died and rose to be with me. I set my mind to be too stubborn to give up.

I walk on.