How exactly do you celebrate this kind of anniversary, anyway? To the best of my knowledge Hallmark doesn't yet have a Post Surgical line of greeting cards. Do you throw a party? Maybe sprint down the street, in celebration of retaining all of your limbs? Or do you ignore it-- act as if its just another ordinary day, in your very ordinary life which is anything but ordinary since this whole ordeal started.
I was busy on that day. But not too busy to take a stroll down memory lane. I recalled the evening before the surgery, after I'd just found out they'd be operating the next day. I see myself sitting at my dining room table, forcing down my dinner, trying to act as though I was coping just fine, when inside I was dying at the thought of having to tell my 4 year old that I was leaving for the hospital...again. I can feel the helplessness I felt lying on the gurney, waiting to be wheeled into the operating room. They had taken my glasses off to prep me and since I am blind as a bat, that was the moment I'd dreaded more than any other. Never mind that they were going to carve a hole into my groin to repair an aneurysm-- nothing terrified me more than seeing only shadows as I went into surgery.