Some days I just feel like a square block in a round world. I’ve heard that statement almost all of my life; never paid much attention to it until about the last 2 years of my life. At times I feel as though I’m going out of my mind. Nothing in particular brought this on; I’m not feeling suicidal; this is something I’ve been processing for quite some time; no, I’m not “loosing faith”; just processing life in the post soul context.

Over the last 8 years, I’ve gone through a type of metamorphosis of sorts and have really begun to deal with some issues in my life that was hindering me. I’ve been able to really see some things from a different perspective and have completely seen God in a different light, understanding, place, & context. Good right? It’s just that the more I grow, the more I feel like that block in a round mall. Over the years I’ve been able to really grow interpersonally, but also find myself growing away from people I thought I’d be friends with “the rest of my life.”

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Today was the memorial for Michael Jackson here in Los Angeles. The city was expecting about 2 million from around the world who would attend the event. The Staples Center was blocked off for about a mile radius and anyone not having a special wristband and ticket could not enter the hallowed event. News and media covered the event as if it were the last Super Bowl to ever take place. Press passes, media booths, private security, about one thousand extra officers (many pulled from other cities and from Highway Patrol), satellite links, pod casting in full effect, and thousands of onlookers made the event a grand spectacle; not to mention the thousands who came to Los Angeles from around the world just to sign his memorial poster outside the Staples Center, and the sheer celebrity onslaught which saw the likes of Beyoncé to Nas. It was quite the event to say the least. 

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