I’m writing this on the bed of C.S. Lewis, in his second floor room
in his beautiful home—The Kilns—just outside of Oxford. There’s a
little brick fireplace in the room, a creaky wood floor, and an
adjacent study where he did a lot of writing after his wife Joy died.
It’s a ghostly little room, haunted by the absence of a legendary
literary hero as well as the curious visage of what looks like a photo
of the shroud of Turin, hanging above the fireplace mantle. The
curtains are brown burlap and the walls are painted bluish gray.
Outside the gardens are thriving and green, with hydrangeas and
begonias and apple and pear trees enjoying their early summer growth
spurts. Down the path there is a hidden pond, sodden with algae and
leaves. I went hiking back there tonight, after dinner. I climbed to
the top of Shotover Hill, on a muddy, well-worn path that Lewis himself
took many an evening. That Lewis had trod on these very paths and slept
under this very roof was indeed an inspiring thing, but more than Lewis
himself (or his writings or his legacy), these things brought to mind a
longing for something other and separate and elsewhere. Fitting, I
suppose, as this is an idea Lewis frequently explored.
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